All my life I've hated piano lessons. 45 minutes of being told how to move my fingers in ways that I just couldn't do, and dealing with the embarrassment when I couldn't play the music in front of me because I hadn't practiced over the week. But when I was with Uncle Jonny, I remember not only taking pride in my piano lessons but desperately wanting him to teach me more. I remember being in constant awe of his raw natural talent, and just wanting to learn from this musical genius. Even though I continued to hate the actual lessons because of Uncle Jonny I sat at the piano and played everything I could because it made me happy. Uncle Jonny made me enjoy playing the piano, even if I had to sit through the lessons. It has come to a point now where I've been given the option to continue my piano lessons or not, and I've chosen to continue. Not only because I know Uncle Jonny would want me to keep learning, but also because nothing makes me feel closer to him than sitting down at the piano and learning how to play another Beatles song. I sit down at that piano and think of him talking to me and teaching me not how to play but how to love the music. He taught me the love for playing piano, and that's the greatest lesson I could've asked for.
I just came back from visiting Uncle Jonny. It was a good day for him.
He was making eye-contact, stringing words together, sometimes he
would even respond to people when they spoke to him. And when Sean
played the piano, sometimes if we were really lucky, for a second he
would start to sing too. It was these moments during the weekend that
were the most exciting and the most saddening. One time, when I was
feeding him dinner he said, "Sammi?" My heart started beating so fast
and I said "Yes Uncle Jonny?" He simply said, "how you doing best
buddy?" And then the moment ended, but it was this moment that made me
so happy yet so sad. He remembered me. No matter where he is mentally
right now, somehow even for just a moment, I was with him. As
wonderful as this made me feel, it's these brief moments of Uncle
Jonny shining through his sickness that are so hard. It's when you
realize that he's still there. He's still the most amazing person that
we all know and love, just wrapped in a layer of Alzheimer's. No
matter how much he starts or continues to slip away, somehow he'll
always be with us and we'll always be with him, and this is the
happiest and saddest truth of my uncle.
He was making eye-contact, stringing words together, sometimes he
would even respond to people when they spoke to him. And when Sean
played the piano, sometimes if we were really lucky, for a second he
would start to sing too. It was these moments during the weekend that
were the most exciting and the most saddening. One time, when I was
feeding him dinner he said, "Sammi?" My heart started beating so fast
and I said "Yes Uncle Jonny?" He simply said, "how you doing best
buddy?" And then the moment ended, but it was this moment that made me
so happy yet so sad. He remembered me. No matter where he is mentally
right now, somehow even for just a moment, I was with him. As
wonderful as this made me feel, it's these brief moments of Uncle
Jonny shining through his sickness that are so hard. It's when you
realize that he's still there. He's still the most amazing person that
we all know and love, just wrapped in a layer of Alzheimer's. No
matter how much he starts or continues to slip away, somehow he'll
always be with us and we'll always be with him, and this is the
happiest and saddest truth of my uncle.
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